happy thanksgiving

Jesus thank you for
-food to eat
-a warm place to have it
-my family
-my beautiful fiancee

You look down from heaven
And melt me with your gaze
Then you come down from heaven
And wrap me in your wings

And it makes me feel loved again
So close in your arms
And it makes me feel home again
So close to your heart

-the glorious unseen

God's been humbling me lately, it's been really difficult being surrounded by so much self-interest it's amazing how much greed can get a hold of someones life.

empire

I was a middle son
between two wayward ones
i was more deserving of my parents love

i had an angels smile
hiding a vultures bite
i had no use for your redeeming blood

arent i glory, glorious

glory, glorious
arent we glory, glorious
arent we worthy, worthy of hearts at our feet

i was a pharisee
i never saw my need for grace
then your love came to me
stood next to mine and i saw that i was poor

show me i was poor
show us we are
show us we are

glory, glorious
we are glory, glorious
not from what good we have done
but from being the least

glory, glorious
oh, i dont know how i was made

my heaven tower sways atop their fleeting praise
God, i dont know how i was made

glory, glorious
are we glory, glorious?
are we worthy, worthy of hearts at our feet?
glory, glorious
we are glory, glorious
not from what weve done
but being the least

i was a wicked one

.as cities burn

can you see the sky turn red?

I've been in Texas for the last 3 days and that small amount of time has fanned my hate of texas from a spark into an inquenchable flame. Every time we plays shows here there always seems to be fights that involve either, a. A. a brick, B. a broken corona bottle. C. antlers of a deceased animal. In my opinion, explosions in the sky and barbecue are the only redeeming qualities in an other wise wholly evil place.
I had a dream this morning where I met dustin kensrue, and no joke, I went up to him and in a sheepish and nervous voice, admitted that he was one of my biggest musical influences and asked if he would be kind enough to take a cd of my band life in your way. he accepted and I soiled myself.

you came to take us..

I've really been enjoying my last few days left at home before I go on the road for the rest of my life. I had the day off yesterday and recorded a cover song for fun. Take a LISTEN if you have a free second and be sure to friend me! So besides having to do taxes I'm scrambling around to see friends before I leave. Give me a ring if you want to get some gelato. yum.

currently listening to:
shai hulud - that within blood ill tempered
muse - black holes and revelations

currently air drumming to:
journey - don't stop believing

If you could love me as a wife
and for my wedding gift, your life
Should that be all Id ever need
or is there more Im looking for

and should I read between the lines
and look for blessings in disguise
To make me handsome, rich, and wise
Is that really what you want

I am a whore I do confess
But I put you on just like a wedding dress
and I run down the aisle
and I run down the aisle
Im a prodigal with no way home
but I put you on just like a ring of gold
and I run down the aisle to you

So could you love this bastard child
Though I dont trust you to provide
With one hand in a pot of gold
and with the other in your side

I am so easily satisfied
by the call of lovers so less wild
That I would take a little cash
Over your very flesh and blood

Because money cannot buy
a husbands jealous eye
When you have knowingly deceived his wife
-derek webb

Seriously, one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite artists in the world. I've been seriously struggling with the whole idea of blind faith and how to reconcile the fact that I really can't find satisfactory answers to all of my questions about the Bible and nature of God. But however, where I feel the temptation to just give in and continue having a half hearted faith I'm trying to persist and find truth to the best of my intellectual capacity.

your light will shine when all else fades.

I took a walk today while my car was being fixed. It was unusually warm out and made me wish it was summer. I remember before I had my first summer job I would have my mom drop me off in the middle of town at 9am and pick me up at 9pm. I would walk up and down the main road all day, going into random stores I had never been in, or have lunch and see a movie. Just enjoying spending time by myself for an extended period of time is something I haven't done in probobly 5 years. It was nice to remember what it felt like to have that simple fascination in slowing down for a second and enjoying a simple thing like walking in no specific direction to no specific destination.... then I preceeded to walk back to where my car was being worked on and grossly overpaid the nice man there and went grocery shopping... So, those 45 minutes were a really nice break in my day and I hope I can do it more often.

currently listening to:
hillsong united - united we stand
red house painters - songs for a blue guitar